Emotions

Yep, it is time to start dealing with emotions and the realization that I am a single parent again.  I didn't realize how strong my defense mechanism was in place.  I was so focused on moving and that darn garage sale.  A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  I cried a lot in church last night.  It is dark during the songs, which allows me to connect with the music and allow God to touch my heart and hold me.  I can only image what it looked like to those that noticed, but it felt good to be in His presence and be held.

I know it is a long process to move forward and heal.  I have my Lord and Savior, as well as my family, friends, and co-workers who are coming along side of me to help and support.  I am truly blessed.

I slept for 9 hours last night.  It felt SO GOOD!  Laundry, organizing the garage and organizing my office are on deck for today.  I do want to sit and read for a bit too.  Dylan comes home at 6pm.  I miss him.

Andrew will be here Wednesday.  I really am looking forward to spending some good time with him.  I'm glad I moved early.  We'll have more time to deal with the issues at hand and talk, vs dealing with a move.  Thank you, God, for the change in plans to move me early.  It seems so perfect now.